You control your destiny. Ask Jesus for forgiveness. He forgives all sin we confess. Believe in him. When Jesus forgives us, anything we have done in the past is gone and forgotten. Only our own guilt will prevent us from enjoying everything He has given us.
"Jesus replied, 'Very truly I tell you, no one can see the kingdom of God unless they are born again.'"-NIV Bible John 3:3.
"For God so loved the world that he gave his one and only Son, that whoever believes in him shall not perish but have eternal life. For God did not send his Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through him. Whoever believes in him is not condemned, but whoever does not believe stands condemned already because they have not believed in the name of God’s one and Son."-NIV Bible, John 3:16-18.
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